by Sandra Hillhouse
I have suffered anxiety my entire life. I thought I could keep it under control. I just had to “get my act together”, as it was often suggested. “Get a grip”, “calm down” and “you are overreacting” were phrases often said to me. It was often suggested that I needed to “go and see a doctor”, which I did only after a serious panic attack which saw me hospitalised.
What on earth was the matter with me? I was a normal everyday wife, mother, daughter and friend. I had a part-time job around being a mum and housewife. I didn’t have that much to be stressed about. Not anything other women didn’t cope with, surely! So what was wrong with ME? After all I had life under control. Or so I thought. Turned out I didn’t have one vital thing under control…….how I dealt with my emotions!
My GP, who is lovely, prescribed me anti-depressant tablets to calm things down, helping me cope temporarily and referred me for Cognitive-Behavioural Therapy. Well, I attended, convinced this was the answer. However, I still had the panic attacks, was still on the anti-depressants. Nothing was really changing or moving forward. I tried to accept that this was just “who I was” and I would have to live with this anxiety and panic attacks. It was just” my nature, my make-up”, nothing could be changed. That is until I discovered Mickel therapy.
I had read about it online. However, it was expensive for me to even think about embarking on such a luxury. With a part time salary and children, a mortgage, bills to pay, etc., I felt I couldn’t possibly indulge myself. How could I justify such luxury as a private therapist?
Until I reasoned how invaluable this was going to be – not just for me, but for my husband, children, family and friends. I wanted to get well so badly! So I went for it. It has been money well spent. My restored health has been worth every penny!
During the first session with lovely Mickel Therapist Fiona Watson, I cried my way through the session. All my anxiety and fears came out. With Fiona’s gentle reassurance I realised quickly what MT was about and how logical it was. How all my feelings were and are very real. Crucially, I had ignored my gut instinct at my (mental health) peril.
Fiona is a gentle and kind woman. Exactly what I needed. I felt safe and understood. By session 2, amid more tears, I realised that the penny was dropping very quickly. I finally understood myself, my emotions, my gut instinct and my thought process. I realised I could and would get well! I knew I had a mountain ahead to climb, but I could do it with Fiona’s help and by applying my new principles.
At long last, I finally am me! I no longer take antidepressants and have not suffered any panic attacks since. If it worked for me, I believe it will work for anyone. It is such a shame MT is not available on the NHS. If so, I believe we would see a massive reduction in mental and physical health. My eternal gratitude to Fiona Watson. A woman God has destined for this line of work! I would recommend MT to the world!