The therapy has been life changing, I feel like a normal 20 year old and I am now looking forward to the future rather than dreading it.
In August 2010 I contracted glandular fever which was the start to two mentally and physically challenging years. I was due to start University in September 2010 but had to postpone for three weeks as I was still too ill to do basic tasks by myself. When I finally went to University I was by no means better, and for my first semester my life literally consisted of eating, sleeping and going to lectures.
I had no social life and leading this type of life inevitably caused me to be constantly low in mood. I suffered from severe fatigue, headaches, blurred vision, anxiety, stomach problems, and brain fog. I had difficulty sleeping or would sleep for up to 12 to 14 hours at a time, had difficulty maintaining concentration and on occasion my legs would become so weak that I would literally feel like I was about to collapse. At times when my symptoms were at their worst I would survive on coffee and energy drinks, a temporary measure to get me through but by no means a long term solution. After the Christmas break I felt slightly better and made friends with the girl who lived next door to me in halls which finally got me out of my room and meant I could speak to someone about how I was feeling.
However I could still not lead a normal life, let alone a normal student life. If I went on a night out it would take me a week to feel ‘normal’ again, although my normal has to be taken in a relative sense. Over the next year my symptoms would periodically worsen and get better; however there was never a point when I felt back to full health. Towards the end of 2011 and the beginning of 2012 my symptoms started to worsen again, and I knew that I had to go to the doctor. As a member of my family was diagnosed with ME several years ago, I had done a lot of research on it and knew the common signs and symptoms. If I am being completely honest, I knew in myself that was what was wrong with me, but I had avoided the doctors for such a long time as I didn’t want it confirmed. When I got the diagnosis of Chronic Fatigue/ M.E in some ways it was a relief, but mostly I felt helpless. I knew that there was no ‘cure’ for ME, and that after two years if you still had symptoms it was unlikely that you would ever recover full health. I was worried about how I would manage the rest of my degree and how I could ever manage to maintain a job should I graduate. When I returned home for summer 2012 in my local village I got a job at a Deli, however after two shifts racked with anxiety and fatigue I knew I had to give up working.
This led to even more worry about how I was going to fund my way through my next year at University, and I was beginning to lose hope in ever recovering. After reading an article in a local paper my mum told me about Mickel Therapy. In truth, when I first started to research the therapy I was not keen as I thought it was about positive thinking. In my mind, glandular fever had led to ME and it had nothing to do with the way I dealt with emotions, how my thoughts worked or anything else along those lines. Nevertheless, after listening to a talk by Dr Mickel himself, the therapy began to make more sense to me.
Dr Mickel spoke about glandular fever being an effect, not the cause of ME. He explained that his theory revolves around the idea that after depressing emotions for too long your ‘emotional pot’ in your brain overflows, leading to your hypothalamus gland becoming overactive. The more I learnt about his theory and the more he described the traits of people who tend to get M.E, I realised the therapy was for me. I will be the first to admit that before I got ill, and during my illness, I did not deal well with anything in my life that I felt was distressing or upsetting. It took me a while to accept it, but now when I look back at how I was living before I became ill I know it wasn’t healthy. The first thing the therapy provided me with was being able to look at my symptoms in a positive way. Seeing them as my body trying to tell me something rather than my body attacking me was amazing. I needed to get my body back in tune with my mind, and that is what Mickel therapy has taught me to do.
After starting therapy, when I got symptoms I would not get angry and depressed at my body for letting me down, instead I would try to figure out what my body was telling me. I wouldn’t say that Mickel therapy is a magic cure that will return you to how you were before you became ill. However I would say that it teaches you the tools to change your life in a positive way and, in that process, recover your health. I have only been back to University for one week so still have to see how I will cope there in the long term, but after about only 5 sessions of the therapy I have gone from being practically housebound to, within reason, doing whatever I want. I have just recently returned from a holiday to Greece, which entailed a 4 hour overnight flight, as well as over 4 hours travelling down to Glasgow airport. My entire holiday was symptom free and after having one lazy day when I got back to Scotland I was back to full health and energy.
I don’t want to portray Mickel therapy as a miracle cure and I strongly think that if you don’t believe in it, or put the effort in then it won’t work for you. I think listening to talks by Dr Mickel and having a look around the website will give you a good indication as to whether or not the therapy is for you. As for me I cannot thank Dr Mickel and my therapist, Leisa Zakeri enough. The therapy has been life changing, I feel like a normal 20 year old and I am now looking forward to the future rather than dreading it.